....
where do i begin ?...
where i ended ?
i just dont know anymore ...
im just so stuck ...
in the past ....
or the frozen present ????

my head begins
to spin ...
and i hear your voice again ...
calling so sweetly ...
you say the gentle words ...
but then you escape me ...

later that evening ...
i lay on my back ...
as i stare up to the sky ...
i see no light ...
no stars ...
just black ...


i just
think ...
wish ...
hope...
someday you would come home ...
i just wanted you to know ...
i always kept a light on ...
so then you'd im still waiting ...

reality over comes me ...
you'll never return ...
not even if you wanted to ...

my eyes are heavy...
they shed this sorrow ...
my mind restless ...
my dreams fearful ...


Pacing back and forth ...

looking around ...

1 ...
2...
3 ...
4...

white walls surround me ...
everything is so bright & violent here ...


.........escape ?



impossible dear...